Bulan kesedihan? Well im resisted to say no about that. I lost two person that i love the most. My nenek just passed away and im the one who with her when her last breathe.
Time tu Cik potatoe nak bagi dia makan asam favourite dia, masa cik potatoe tanya dia nak makan asam i saw her finger moving and tak lah pulak cik potatoe nak pikir apa2. But ssuddenly when im comeback from my living room and i came to her i saw she's smiled and i said to her "amboi lebarnya senyum, ni abang bukakkan asam feberet atok" *yes i call her atok. Nothing to weird when u're johorean*. Then im realized there's no feedback from her.
I saw her stomach not pumping at all, when cik potatoe pegang nadi dia and im realized she already left us with a huge smile in her face. Allahu. Im crying so bad.
3 hari sebelum meninggal, kalau waktu siang memang dia tak bagi kami tutup pintu. Bila kami tanya kenapa? Dia just cakap "tak payah tutup pintu, gelap". And the she kept saying "slowkan tv, tak elok ada tetamu bukak tv kuat-kuat". Padahal time tu kami sekeluarga je ada kat situ.
Back then my nenek one of hafizah. Bila kami ceritakan perkara ni pada ustaz yg incharged time kematiaan beliau, he said"atok awak tahu bahawa janji Allah padanya sudah hampir tiba dan sesungguhnya dia adalah orang-orang yang beriman". Kami hanya mampu tersenyum mendengar ayat ustaz tu. Apa yang kami tahu dunia kami kini berubah.
Kepada Nenda Fatimah tenanglah nenda di sana. Suatu hari nanti cucuanda akan datang teman nenda disana. Alfatihah.
